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Wed, Oct. 5th, 2005 02:16 pm



movie clip regarding the subject matter can be seen here - wait until the end of the clip for the comment.
Be sure to click the second video, from le daily show

Current Mood: amused amused
Current Music: Broken Social Scene / Swimmers / Broken Social Scene

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Fri, Sep. 30th, 2005 08:21 pm

alambique IV



Current Mood: awake awake
Current Music: Super Furry Animals / Zoom! / Love Kraft

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Tue, Sep. 27th, 2005 10:24 pm

yuck. so i haven't exactly...done any work around here in regards to school...culture drone is moving along quite well...in fact im giving a presentation tomorrow in regards to the executive summary. but in regards to real life things...yeah. went to nyc for the birthday, i wish i could promise you i'd write about it soon but yeah...not really sure if that would be truthful. let me just say that even though i lost my ipod, my digicam (that was half broken anyway), my keys (even to the apartment in tokyo), and most importantly, the best bag in the world. i am going to now have a tribute, because it must be known - this bag was once mine. oh, and if you see someone with that, don't hesitate to track them with your posse. so yeah, i finally set my desk up like a real desk (finally able to sit on it, is it waht we're saying), and i realize - god, i haven't talked to any of you in so long. so... hi there. i'm trying to get myself on track in this world - i've moved into a place smaller than my apartment in tokyo by a lot - the entire room is the size of just the bedroom of my apartment in tokyo, and is underground, technically. so yeah. needless to say, my life is strewn outside and down the hallway and around the corner, for obvious reasons. i have much to go through, and work is already underway, and im already behind in school - though ahead in the work world. gotta get back on track communicating with pu san and all at alambique - i have a good amount of work to do for them still. i will fulfill my promises to all of you. so yeah, this is supposed to be a sort of getting back on track hi hold me liable and kick my ass if you think i'm not doing something or...someone saying cheesy sexual references at this point would be so tacky don't go there. ah yes. so what is up mothaaatruckas, my apologies for those of you who are waiting for me to get back on track, i'm almost up to steam, i swear to yous.

love love

p.s. i know you've all seen this, but i'd like to declare that it is indeed the last photo i ever transfered off my camera before it was injured by the tokyo metro and later stolen on the new york metro after my eventful journey around the world. i dont know what else to say right now, but this is beautiful, and it was indeed the last, last, last, picture.



now on to getting back to the present.

Current Mood: uncomfortable uncomfortable
Current Music: Andrew Bird / A Nervous Tic Motion of the Head to the Left / 2005-05-01 - Paradiso (Kleine zaal)

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Sun, Sep. 4th, 2005 12:35 pm

productivity is in the eye of the beholder

Current Mood: determined determined
Current Music: Life Without Buildings / The Leanover

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Wed, Aug. 31st, 2005 07:05 pm

riding the orange line to midway in chicago, Casimir Pulaski Day plays in my ears, and i can't help but quietly weep. its been a long time since i've cried. it feels good somehow to cry for reasons you can't remember. the people around me don't seem to mind. is it normal to feel as though the last two years of your life never happened? tokyo. santa barbara. my car. the loves. all of it feels like it couldn't be any more distant than now. you'd think that moving from place to place to place, seeing friends for unjustifiably brief moments, not really saying goodbye (or even 'hello,' for that matter). its like driving half-way across the country, california to boston, in a car you've had for three weeks, only to wind up stuck in des moines, iowa with a dead engine. so after several broken-down days, you bus it to chicago, staying with a friend you haven't seen in years, while you pathetically call everyone else you'd planned on seeing to tell them the news. roadtrip is over. katrina is pounding the south, but for some reason you've booked a flight from chicago to atlanta to boston. oh thats right, money was a factor. as usual. don't get busted for possession in iowa. make sure it happens in nebraska first, they're nicer about it over there. i love not using uppercase letters. makes me feel better about myself. it would be so wonderful if you could write your papers in lowercase. oh dear god, papers. i can't go back. the institution that i left last year for reasons of conscience and stimulation has sucked me in with an offer i can't refuse. a free ride? do you think i can't see your motives? fuckin crystal. i need those warm tokyo nights back. i need the drunken cartoon whizpopbang neon zing back. at pulaski, one more stop to midway. "i can't explain, the state that i'm in. the state of my heart, he was my best friend." sing it sufjan.

Current Music: sufjan stevens / illinois

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Thu, Jul. 28th, 2005 05:24 am

i walked up on her out of nowhere (well, shimbashi exit 1, to be precise) on my way to work with alin.
the point is, i almost never made it to alin's place. nearly died. right. there.
my camera saved my life today.




cupid hath pulled back his sweetheart's bow
to cast divine arrows into her soul
to grab her attention swift and quick
or morrow the marrow of her bones be thick
with turpentine kisses and mistaken blows

see the devil may do as the devil may care
he loves none sweeter as sweeter the dare
her mouth the mischief he doth seek
her heart the captive of which he speaks
so note all ye lovers in love with the sound
your world be shattered with nary a note
of one cupids arrow under your coat

and in the land of star crossed lovers
and barren hearted wanderers
forever lost in forsaken missives and satan's pull
we seek the unseekable and we speak the unspeakable
our hopes dead gathering dust to dust
in faith, in compassion, and in love

Current Mood: look at the time
Current Music: Smashing Pumpkins / Cupid De Locke / Mellon Collie And The Infinite Sadness - Dawn To Dusk

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Tue, Jul. 26th, 2005 01:05 pm


Current Mood: melancholy melancholy
Current Music: The Frames / Finally / Burn The Maps

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Thu, Jul. 14th, 2005 02:20 pm

http://www.tokyoartbeat.com/event/2005/C166
my show's been written up in tokyo art beat

Current Mood: aggravated aggravated
Current Music: The Books / A Little Longing Goes Away / Lost And Safe

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Sun, Jul. 10th, 2005 05:40 pm

just a few things i need to get out...random bits of this and that...



first, i stormed a castle in my dreams last night
this isn't the first time this has happened
but its the first time i remembered exactly what it felt like to slice through flesh
gross, right?

i argued last night for a good hour about the similarities and differences between economics and art with two securities traders. basically, no one wants to deal with the bad news. the only way we can succeed is to use the current system's structure to slowly convince it to consume itself. not exactly the easiest thing to pull off. though the two of them drunkenly kept trying to establish differences between each other that didn't exist, to my surprise there was a lot we could agree on. whether thats because one of them used to date an artist, i couldn't really put my finger on it.

i haven't had a laptop battery for the last month or two. i realized this morning that its cut down greatly on the amount of writing i've been able to do, as i don't carry it around with me, and i fill my sketchbooks with mostly drawings these days.

björk and her ten person entourage came to my solo exhibition the night my visa ended and i was on a plane for thailand.

i'm thinking about putting the show online, but i really can't decide. its more of a time/labor/effort issue. i really have none of those at the moment.

contemplating another piercing

buy the sufjan stevens illinois album

sarongs are the shit

tae SHOULD be coming to tokyo soon

jessie sprague gets here in like two days

i'm trying to pack before that happens - its hard

oh yeah i went to thailand and stayed in tae's home again. it was wonderful, though extremely blitzed. the whole trip lasted 3 full days. but it was nice. and you know what i mean. (and no! not the women - i've never gotten involved in that part of the thai experience, getcho mind outa tha gutter)

i've been awarded a scholarship without applying for it. a full ride for the next year in regards to everything academic. the Free Thinker's Scholarship. very odd. the first one they've ever given at my school, and the school chose me as the first recipient. i don't know what to say, but 30k makes me really want to say very little. except that i feel like the institution is attempting to suck me back into the system in some attempt to ensure its own future. needless to say, this clears out all of my financial concerns for the next year. the car, the roadtrip, the living situation, all of it. i was also handed a single in bryant.

i can't leave tokyo - things have been going too well, and they only seem to be getting better. alambique had its first anniversary last night. the tshirts weren't printed as well as i'd hoped, but that was a money issue, so whatever - next time.

i hung out last night with the head of namaiki designs, the group that handled all of MTV Japan's identity and promotions for this year's VMA's. awesome discussions were had. topics ranged from duck-rice-partnership, sustainable architecture, google maps not letting you zoom into the ocean, the role of intelligent designERS, the fact that the thing he's most proud of in his life is a one foot cucumber he just grew, the fact that we all want to escape to the wilderness deep inside but most of us won't be ready when we have to, SARS as a sociopolitical experiment in terror, the possible death of two-thirds of the american population, and possible subversive uses of the establishment to effect change contrary to its own agendas. the general point being that he is interested in culture drone, agreed to look over what we're producing, possibly host it at superdeluxe, and offer us his two cents in regards to things we might be missing.

technically, i shouldn't have sat down and written all this, because i have a lot to get done before the day is through, and that means i must go and start it with my shower. i spent most of the day in bed with a hangover. anniversary celebrations tend to go on well into the morning.

oh, and so you'll all stop asking me...

I GET HOME SOMETIME BETWEEN


JULY 22 - 25



i miss you too.

Current Mood: hungry hungry
Current Music: Sufjan Stevens / Come On! Feel the Illinoise!, Pt. I: The World's Columbian Exposition / Pt. II: Car

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Sat, Jul. 9th, 2005 02:17 pm


European and American Leaders Terrorized Citizens

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